"The way the ball bounces.........."

Time and again I have done this, the roll call, to see who is new in the list and who have been the latest deletions. There has barely been a period which has seen deletions reappear for the last decade or so. This time it has been different. Some old faces resurfaced and connections were made, maybe not with the same intensity that existed but nonetheless they were reconnected. Partly the change I believe is the change that has come in me. I have changed dramatically and I can be sure of it because I have felt the difference. The great saga of expectations barely remains and puts me in a better state of affairs. Some even earned the integrity of retaining their previous roll numbers and classes. It always nice to know they still believed. But this post is for something else. I have always been the sole person responsible for these distances. I have created pain and distrusted their friendship. My so called mood swings played the critical role. My forceful absence of com...